A reflection on Day of Mourning (aka Thanksgiving), partially drafted in the days before the violent attack at Club Q in Colorado on November 20, 2022. The 2nd part of the reflection holds space following the tragedy. The ups and downs of grief, gratitude, and connection. Many look forward to this time of year to take time to recover and recharge. However, this time can feel complex, painful, and dreaded for many. In the days after, when trying to process and make sense of things, I realized that sometimes words just can’t. Our bodies sometimes just can’t. And so we grieve. We numb. We rage. We connect. We fight back. And we hold the hard together, in community, with as much fierce compassion as humanly possible.